Many people wonder where my passion for dogs and blogging come from and I haven’t given it much thought until this year. 2012 has been a great year for Keep the Tail Wagging, but I’ve never cried so much in my life until this year. There were a lot of relationship endings this year that were tough (friendships, family, our puppy, and my mom), but all the turmoil helped me understand why I have such a drive when it comes to Keep the Tail Wagging.
My Sad Story
I grew up with a mother who suffers from severe depression.
Growing up, my life had many ups and downs. I have great memories of my mom, but they’re tainted by memories of both physical and verbal abuse. I finally reached a point where it was time to forgive and move on. I had to accept the truth; my mom is unable to be happy with me, because she’s so unhappy. I finally stopped waiting for her to accept me; it’s not that she hates me; it’s that she’s so terribly unhappy.
It cracks me up when people speak to me as if children are still an option for me. I didn’t have children, because I didn’t want to repeat my upbringing.
So I have dogs. They’re my kids. The only kids I’ll have and I love them. After spending a life feeling like a mistake, a grand disappointment, I just wanted to be loved. Who else loves us as much as a dog or cat?
My relationship with my mother shaped the person I am today. I’m amazed at what I’m able to accomplish with my blogging. The reason I’m so passionate, is because I want to succeed so badly with Keep the Tail Wagging that I can feel it, smell it, and taste it every day. And I’m energized by the path I’m on, because it’s going to make a huge difference in the lives of so many dogs.
There are five dogs who have felt the benefit of my desire to love and be loved: Rodrigo, Sydney, Morgan (our foster dog), Riley (resting in peace), and Blue. I will spend every day of my dogs’ lives making sure that they know they’re loved.